The Last
Holy shit!!! Tomorrow’s the last day of high school. For some reason.. i don’t believe it has hit me. This past week I haven’t really felt anything leaving each classroom for the last time. I seem to be emotionless when it comes to the end. Right now… even though a huge chapter of my life is coming to an end, I don’t feel a great deal of significance. If you really peel apart my brain at this moment, you’d see that I’m actually dreading the day when I move my tassels to the other side in that hideous cap and gown. Why? It’s because of who’s watching.
You see, when my grandpa was sick… ever since the very beginning, when we found out he only had 6 months to live… my one selfish request to God was to be able to keep him alive to see me graduate. He was so excited about watching his third grandchild walk across that stage… even in his last few day he would talk about going. On Saturday that day will come, and when I look into the crowd to see my proud family cheering me on… he won’t be there. I know he’s there watching from the best seats anyone could offer, but I can’t help but think that nothing but emptiness will fill me when I walk across that platform. So if there’s something off about me come graduation day… or even now. Please excuse me. I’m just not feeling it right now.
